Dear Friends,
I’m taking a short break from creating this publication. I’ll be back on September 25 after the Equinox.
I am taking time this weekend and next week to reflect on my writing and what I’m actually trying to create here on substack. My original plan was to share my raw work that would eventually become the first draft of my memoir about the last five years I’ve spent living nomadically and learning who the fuck I am. A collection of stories about my inward and outward adventures. Also in my original plan, and most crucially, was to write the truth so I could find the other weirdos like me and not feel so alone.
In the spirit of telling the truth, here it is: I am in pain and I need to take a rest. I’m still dealing with hormonal health issues but I’m also reeling from a friend’s recent comment that my writing reads like I am trying too hard to be good and that it doesn’t feel true. I know that it’s only one person’s opinion, but it’s also mine.
I am a good writer who is trying so hard to be a great writer. I am trying so hard to be a poet. I am trying so hard to do justice to the beauty of my life and turn it into stories that will mean something to other people and finally, finally, let people see the real me. So that I will finally see the real me.
I am sharing the rest of this letter today only with my paid subscribers because I’m feeling especially tender. If you have felt that my work resonates with you and you’d like to join my inner circle, I hope you will choose a subscription plan. If affordability is an issue, please write me directly and I would be happy to gift you a subscription.